I received an email from a former neighbour (well sent a few days ago from my former neighbours son who is 5 or so years younger than me, but he is the most deepest, spiritually connected wise, intelligent old soul I know) although I only discovered his email today because I have not logged on to my email for over one week.
The last time I spoke to him his younger brother died. I really could not remember his brothers name (I can now) and I asked him his brothers name so I could say a prayer for him (although I forgot to mention it was for a pray and started to menion other things). He was upset and I never heard from him until today. I thought about him because I share a really deep kindred spirit friendship that transcends (I believe) beyond the realms of this world (no I am not crazy

He said he couldn't stop thinking about contacting me (by the way we were just friends and have no romantic intrest in one another). I replied but felt as if he was actually reaching out to me because (his brother died round about this time 3yrs ago). Although he was worried about me I think subconsciously he is worried about himself. I can feel that he needs help and maybe he is not connected to anyone as strongly as we were (we just had the deepest honest conversations, that is very rare to find).
Anyway I had a dream last night about another friend who I last spoke to sometime last year (I also have a very strong bond to him as well). In my dream I dreamt he needed help. I called him today not based on my dream, because although in my dream he needed help he did not want to ask anyone for help. But because of my former neighbours email. I contacted him and we started talking about India and he said I was not the first person to mention today that he should go there. He sounded okay but not very upbeat. We got talking so more and then I realised that he did need help and I could help him with what was going on and in turn he could help me. He was so happy as was I and it made me realises my other friend was right I did need help (not really from my neighbour but he did help me in a roundabout way) . I needed help but I was to "independent" to ask anyone for it .
I think we all become so isolated and independent. If people do not turn their backs on us we than drive them away. Yes we sympathise, empathise and do everything in-between, but we always remain ready for peoples reactions (often moving away in disgust). So that is what we expect and numb ourselves to the reality that we do not fit into society.
Often our friendships suffers, we do not want to be a burden to our friends so we have less and less contact, or when our friends go we let them go because we may think they are better off. We do not have to be hermits rotting away indoors.
You never know how you can help someone by just taking to them and they may help you inturn.
PS thanks for your pm flower ....come back on the forum (they say the hardest people to understand, understand the most....or something along those lines) I am sure you are just misunderstood (as I am) and that may not be a bad thing x
